There are so few females in existence anymore. All I see, everywhere, are grotesque caricatures. Dark, orange skin on a blatantly very Caucasian body, eyes of a raccoon or prostitute, obese round breasts, huge, misshapen lips coated with gooey, white lip-gloss, tiny, bony waists, and obnoxious fat asses. Not only are women choosing to look more like a drag queen, which is an exaggeration of a woman, they are encouraged to do so. I see men too, somehow interested in these plastic monsters and it’s horrifying. When did it all get to this? To the point where the only way to achieve a fuckable image is through harsh body manipulation? To become a monstrous imitation of one gender?
My entire life is a constant back and forth game of finally feeling content with myself only to suddenly feel horribly disgusting, fat, and undesirable.
Today went more smoothly than I thought it would. Orientation was long and boring, but time went by quicker than expected. Got picked up right after by my friend Jared for a bit of coffee and authentic mexican food. Got home, found out my work is closed tomorrow due to impending snow storm. Now for some X-files episodes, hot chocolate with almond milk, and cuddles with the boyfriend.
Despite the fact that I have been working my job (starting from my temp position) for almost a year now, I find it ridiculous that I, with a handful of coworkers, are forced to attend a New Employee Orientation in Annapolis today. This is some distance from my house/workplace. Thankfully, we all decided carpooling was the best option, as I have no intention of getting behind the wheel of a car myself yet. I have to be at this orientation all day. All fucking day.
So, off to meet in the freezing cold hours of a Giant supermarket to wait for my coworkers. This is going to be fun. :)